"Through the back window of a '59 wagonI watched my best friend Jamie slippin' further away I kept on waving 'till I couldn't see her And through my tears, I asked again why we couldn't stay Mama whispered softly, Time will ease your pain Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the sameAnd she said, How can I help you to say goodbye? It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry Come, let me hold you and I will try How can I help you to say goodbye? I sat on our bed, he packed his suitcase I held a picture of our wedding dayHis hands were trembling, we both were crying He kissed me gently and then he quickly walked away I called up Mama, she said, Time will ease your pain Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye? It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry Come, let me hold you and I will tryHow can I help you to say goodbye? Sitting with Mama alone in her bedroomShe opened her eyes, and then squeezed my hand She said, I have to go now, my time here is over And with her final word, she tried to help me understand Mama whispered softly, Time will ease your painLife's about changing, nothing ever stays the same And she said, How can I help you to say goodbye?It's OK to hurt, and it's OK to cry Come, let me hold you and I will try How can I help you to say goodbye?" -Patty Loveless
So, I guess it’s a sad moment when I can relate a lot of the weeks past events to a Patty Loveless song, but sometimes music lyrics seem to speak for me when words don’t seem like enough. I’m not going to lie, but the past year has been tough on me- I uprooted myself once again only to be transplanted into the biggest city I have ever lived in full of things I have never seen, I got a job that plays monopoly with more money than I will ever see in my lifetime, I have a lovelife that tests my patience yet I still find worth it at the end of each day because he makes me smile, I have had more family members pass away this year than I have had over my whole 25 years of exsistance. It’s hard, really hard and while I understand that this is how life works it doesn’t make it any easier when it comes time to say goodbye.
As I grow I’m learning to take the bitter with the sweet, good with the evil, and the night and the day. Life is about changing and if it’s one thing that I do best is adapt. I love the city I live in and don’t know if there will ever be enough time to explore all the cool things…but I will try. I love my job and every opportunity that goes with it. I’m thankful for the time that I did get to spend with my family and I even more grateful that I have a family whom I would spend every waking moment with if I had the chance. I have great friends whom I cherish everyday even if they are a thousand miles away. And most of all I have hope for a better tomorrow even if that means a few more wrinkles, a couple more tears, so much laughter that my stomach hurts and a some good memories to call it a day.
